Centro.  i don't dig clubbing i guess. oh well.  the music and lights are nice, (yes i know most of you you don't like trance/techno), but the whole atmosphere and the crowd. hmm.  i think i breathed in more smoke then i've ever breathed in my whole life. and the drinks are damn weak lah. and if i say they're weak they must REALLY be weak. aha. i suppose i might have danced if i managed to get abit high. but really they were quite useless.
Oh well. at least now i know what its like. will be a long while before i relive that experience i think.  especially since i owe the fund $100.  NO wonder firas is always broke.
 
Ah well. i think i'm abit tired from going out and out.  Staying at home and overheating the ps for the past two days has been pretty relaxing.  although i was suddenly hit by this notion that i was fucking up my life somewhere halfway a battle.
 
I have to get a grip. mustmust. aha uni hadri don't banish me from the new leaves! haha i'm not that corrupted that i can't turn back.  i hope.
Though seriously speaking, this mustn't go on lah.  To get 4As will prove harder than i thought.  though i nearly scraped it for econs.  Which i think if i put in more effort can lah.  But my maths has dropped back to that pre O-level period when I was failing like shit.  i mean 19/70 has proven to be a serious wake up call.  shit man. i hope kohsiewyong will be nice enough to do tution with me before promos. argh.
And lit. ridiculous. i enjoy lit, yet i fuck up my othello. and probably silas although i haven't gotten it back.   And i still enjoy prime reputation with my teachers.  fuck lah i until now still haven't read othello.
But the one that worries me most is history.  SEA. 11/25 under chengtju. whose mother lenient.  And while i admit i didn't really study, its still horrifying to see such a lousy mark.  and i don't know about pandian's essay yet.  If that one is fucked up its an indicator that i REALLY don't know whats going on.  because i thought i could grasp that. just as i thought i may have passed maths.
 
hmm. and now i realise this rambling may seem boring to you. 
but all i want to do is make a little diary.  for my close friends to see and know what i think.  maybe get responses.  but this was never meant to be for your enteratainment. 
hmmm. she has it tough man.