Ooh. Chee is turning gay. Haha he paid manymanydollars to join gym club with bobo. And cw mite be joining wif mk lah. Aiyah i feel left out. hahaz. but i don't realli want to join lah anyway. the club's really nice though. and posh. It's quite a cool place to hang out i guess... but forking out that much $$ just for a place to hang out's abit too much in my opinion. Not like i'm seriously interested in doing the gym after all. And i don't want to eat meepok for the rest of my life like cw. hehez.
Today sucked. I didn't get humans. SHIT LAH! i didn't get humans! Well first before i start complaining and bitching, congratz to all those who got in. good for you, moe recognized your talent. Now for the rant.
What the heck is wrong with moe! they're absolutely retarded. I mean when i first got rejection letter i was like... okay.. maybe they're looking for people with more calibre and better capabilities then me. Which is alright lah if the people who gotin were better / didn't get in were worse. But holy shit! zhong xing didn't get in! holy fuck lah! he's like the last person i thought wouldn't get in. Amber prize! Then people like the 11a1 girl din get in, and i was totally convinced that something is wrong with moe. Either that blind bat who interviewed me and decided to make my bloody life so difficult by telling me that great poets are depressed and manical and don't really better empathise and understand people as i said was having pms today, or moe's really blind to talent. Speaking of which, alot of the people interviewed by the tj principal were fucked. I don't mean me when i'm talking about talent. Although now I really think that perhaps i had deserved more of a chance at the scholarship. Actually I mean people like zhong and zhi an. And alot of the others who definitely deserved the scholarship.
And horrors of horrors, they're kicking people out?! I don't tink that's been done before, but its utterly ridiculous. On what criteria do you kick people out then?! Its totally silly and unfair to those who've been doing all the different subjects for 5 mths (speaking of which, the long 5 months is AGAIN moe's fault for being so sluggish), and to expect them to restart again. With lousier teachers. And perhaps a whole new class. Its not good, not fair, not healthy. In fact its absolutely inhumane. Partly because humans people only thrive in their intellectual and discussive environment. And partly cos its bloody evil.
And worst of all, now i have no option to push my reset button. I was hoping that perhaps that the retards up there would gimme the scholarship so that i could change syllabus and play ignorant and stupid all over again. Now i don't have that option. i HAVE to catch up on SEA history and Othello. I CANNOT continue to think "oh well i might change class yu noe" anymore. HOW TO PROCRASTINATE NOW?
Not that i'd have changed class actually. Actually i might have. I love the class, its really nice, but the teachers... well certain teachers lah. Incompetent-ehehe. Utterly incompetent-ehehe. And of course itwould have been entertaining to come under purvis. Who's apparently utterly funny.
Actually that can be remedied. Work hard and do S Lit. ooh. hmmm. But i'll still be stuck with -eheh-. toopeed e-ching-ah.
And i always thought that i was just going to be temporary in ao1d. that i'd be sad to go to humans. Well tim, apparently you were wrong. You won't have to make a soppy farewell speech anymore.
Shit you fan and chee. you should have transferred to my class lah! idiots. i told you its possible that i wouldn't get in. Not that i wanted that possibility to become reality of course.
urrgh. feeling all pekcheked. i feel cheated. i placed quite abit of hopes on this. to have it all dashed to pieces is quite pathetic. Irritating actually. Very irritating. May sound pompous and presumptuous of me, but i feel i deserved it. maybe to be the lower-rung of the humans scholars perhaps, i can't say that i'm on equal terms with people like yixun and jonyap definitely, but i still think i deserved it. I think i have the kind of mind and academic capability. Maybe i'm abit lazy, but that always can be remedied. urgh. die you bastards. rot in your lavish tax-paid offices at buona vista while you deprive deserving young people of the recognition they deserve.
Hmm. perhaps i'm quite a sore loser sometimes. Just that i've never really failed academically when i put my mind to it. Its a first for me. And i'm not happy that the first scholarship i've ever applied for has rejected me in the face.